We human beings are always "expecting."We always have expectaions . Lots of them. Some we are consciously aware of.



Expectations are always there, however, in the background of our daily experiences. Whether we are attuned to them or whether we are oblivious to them--which too often is the case--our expectations come into play in a multitude of subtle ways.



Friendships, for example, are based upon a mutually understood set of expectations. We expect our friends to be loyal, honest, and trustworthy. We expect they will never try to hurt us or harm us intentionally, and that they will always be responsive to us when we are in need.



What happens when people who profess to be our friends let us down? Do you feel angry? betrayed? Perhaps they were never our friends at all. But our faulty expectations may have caused us to perceive them as being more committed to true friendship than they really were.



Had read this somewhere:

"Never idealize others. They will never live up to your expectations." So true.



I have made several friends, some of them I cannot think of living without. Here's to them:



Thanks Sheetal, Dee, M, S for always being there. I am thankful to God that He has been AWESOME when it comes to gifting me with friends. He's given me a reason to live, be better and a chance of REDEMPTION.

If there is anything that can go possibly go wrong it will. Everything went wrong yesterday. I hate Murphy, khud to chala gaya par apna sada hua sa funda chod gaya.



During the novena service tday, there was an announcement for urgent requirement of blood. All generous donors were asked to contact the Novena office for the same. It was marvellous to see the number of people who assembled for this generous cause. Par U know what..mera khoon lene se inkaar kar diya unlogon ne. :-( Said I was underweight.!!! awwwwwwwwwwwww.......Bakwas log hai! Stupids!Donkeys!Fools!Idiots!Jerks...I"ll see you all in hell!



On a lighter note:



My very good chum is coming from Lucknow this weekend..Yipee! We'll be gng to the beach and treat ourselves to paani-puri and chaat. Yum!



We last met about two months ago. Sheesh..!Tht doesn 't sound like a long time.



Its going to be another good weekend.



I have decided that I ain't gonna work out nemore, eat w/ refrain, watch movies, read books, blog more often and catch up with all the people who are lucky enuf to know me :-).



Tht's how I like my days..Stuffed!



Ok Bye.



I still hate Murphy.

The truth is still so elusive. I do not know who I am frenzied at - me or you, me for having veritable expectations, or you for not fulfuling even the most basic of them.



It's an axiom; You will always need some people more than they will ever need you.

Lotssssssssssssssaaaaaaaaaaa..hugs and thank yous to all the lovely ppl who made this day soooooo special to me:



S:For waiting till the clock struck 12:00 and being the 1st one to greet me.



A:For taking the pains of calling me all the way from UK. It's been a pleasure knowing ya.



M, P and A:For those boooootiful card's and lovely gifts. Thnkx a ton!



And of course, S, D, V, A, you are the bestest!! and you know why! :)



Thanks guys! You rock!

Due to terrible pressure at work, deadlines, backlogs and my carelessness - I am going through unreasonable anxieties, unimaginable insecurities, useless self-torture and shortened life span. So I have started - Save Nikita FUND. For all those who don't know me, I am a unique being staying in the heart of Mumbai. I like chocolate… in any form, can subsist on curds, mango and strawberry ice cream for the rest of my existence. Love pasta, pani puri and cheese. I lie..to save mine and my pal's asses and talk a lot, most people would like to stitch my mouth shut.

So, a million bucks would just about be fine....though it won't ease away all the pain and trouble, but it would help me decide on my future plans. So raid ur piggy banks, cheques, bank a/c's.....I promise to mention each one of you, who helps, in my prize acceptance speech.

Don't ya think we humans should hibernate? Wouldn't life be better after six months of sleep? It was so good for Sleeping Beauty, she was woken by a handsome prince at the end of it all and not by the damn alarm clock!

I've learnt something in the last few days. The futility of ones efforts in making the other person see your point or in making someone accept the present situation. There's a lot of happiness in giving up and not holding to your point so rigidly. Time is the biggest teacher and if you are right, then one day, the preson will discover the truth by himself/herself. You cannot enforce your view/thoughts on someone of force them to see the wholistic view unless they voluntarily make up their mind to open their eyes.



I will move on, onto the path that looks bright and peaceful, down this road, with the complete awareness that once I start on it there will just be no coming back, for better or for worse, and allow nature to take its own course.

I solemnly pledge that:



I shall think before I speak.

I shall grin a little less.

I shall exercise and lay my hands off "HIGH" calorie foods.

I shall stick by the decisions I make.

I shall avoid being headlong.

I shall not frown when people don't communicate.

I shall not miss HIM.

I shall not take things for granted.

I shall accept life, the way it is.

I shall take timeout for myself.

I shall read more.

I shall remember that everyone is influenced by kindness.

I shall phone home if I am more than 20 minutes late.

I shall understand before I crticize.

I shall be more systematic and organized.

I shall be a more saner person.

I shall write...SENSE



This ain't gonna be easy. I can feel it even as I write it!.

Was travelling by bus tday, and as usual there was hardly any space to stand. I was standing near those front seats that are meant for ladies, seats that have the word "Ladies" indicated in English and Marathi. Surprisingly there are so few seats that are reserved for the handicapped.



The lady standing behind me asked one of the men to vacate the seat reserved for women. The man objected a little, but eventually gave up the seat. Another gentleman facing me suggested that i do the same. I told him, very politely that I don't mind standing.



The entire incident was so amusing. I wonder at such women, who on one hand demand equality with men and on the other hand expect treatment deserved by the "weaker".

I seem to forget that I have a life outside this office and more importantly a thought outside this current frame of mind of him, clients, backlogs and deadlines.



I need to keep reminding myself.