Another year.....

.....of life is passing by. For good.

Life is full of lessons. So many of them. Each one of us learns only after the game is over. I am scared of lessons, as much as I did when in school. My parents kept telling me, "If you learn now, you will benefit later". I take on the role of a parent and offer the same advice to myself each time. The child in me will never head and all I have to do is plead.

There are certain lessons that are so hard, the only way to remember them is to memorize them. I try and look for some reasoning, some logical pattern, but I am not good at these subjects. One ha to pay penalities for growing older. I do everything that's possible to get rid of the problem. Only to be arrived at a satisfactory xplanation. Only to sheild myself incase a similar problem presents itself in the future. Only to make the burden of the lesson a little easier to bear.

But, no such luck. I feel I am not acquainted with the mental tools to deal with it or the problem itself defies existing laws.

There were other lessons; particularly enlightening ones. Now I see all those paths that were not in view earlier, where I thought there were none.

All in all, in these few months I have grown wiser and not just older. I can now understand when the great man said, “the tree of knowledge is not the tree of life”.