It's one year since we split
I walk and talk and get around
Lie down, stand up, and sit
I eat and drink and smoke and sing and
Live a little bit
Unhappy Anniversary
It's one year since we split

Some people are just horrible in nature and so we do away with them. And then there are some who enrich our lives by their very presence, so we strive hard to keep them. "We are two different people", he told me. "Our dreams, aspirations, needs and expectations are different, and hence there isn't much going on between us", he said with such asperity.

Me thinks the old proverb "Opposites attract" is true only in the begining of the relationship and two "different" people part ways when the rose-tinted glasses come off. Is a relationship all about "similar" choices in music, movies and your ideal Hollywood/Bollywood hero(ine)s? Wouldn't you talk it out, allow the person to change her/himself or try and change for your partner, when you realise you are drifting apart? MEBBE NOT! All, at that point, you would want to do is avoid the person as long as you can, and if the person is shameless and insists on working the relationship, you denounce them and pronunce the decision in the most crass way and marr the relationship, which was nutured with so much diligence, for ever.

I never wanted to end it in such an unpleasant manner, damn!, I never wanted it to end. I wanted to talk things over, work things out, but he was so austere that it couldn't. He only wanted to shut his doors on me, and I was so aghast, I ended up behaving scandalously, for the way he handled the situation, or rather left me all alone to handle it. I sobbed under the covers, in the dark, in the bathroom, in front of my friends, while praying and most of the time ‘alone’. I don’t remember a day when I haven’t cried, though every time the situation was different but unfortunately the person causing it was the same.

How funny it is, a person who is closer to you than anyone else, after some time, they just walk out of your life. You can't call them if you want too, can't meet them. You no longer have any right on them. There are times when I still wonder as to where did I go wrong, how can something that started out with so much promise wither into nothing? I was so used to having him around, I could not think about life without him. Perhaps, if I were given one chance, we could have made something out of it. In a clear, unequivocal and imploring voice he told me that I am not what it takes to be his girl, still rings in my ears.

For any relationship to sustain it needs a rock solid foundation. And needless to say this can be built with love, honesty, trust, commitment, respect. But I have moved on. Just that I still care. Care like I used to. Hurt like I used to. Not for me, for him. I always wanted to see him happy. Just that. What’s wrong with that...??

Broken dreams and drowned parades, lovers who just slip away
Guess I learn to live that way, it only rains on me
Seems to me there was a time, it used to rain on friends of mine
Now I look around and find, it only rains on me