(Ex) Terminating the past.
Spent the night at one of my best friend's house. Let's call her 'S'. Talking to her had a way of bringing a dash of amusing, everyday reality into my increasingly surreal life.
The combination of two sleepless nights and the continuing acute worry had left her physically and emotionally spent. She was going through the aftermath of a broken relationship. A story she tried not to let herself think of anymore. The memory of it all was still so painful. She hadn't seen him months now; months without seeing him, touching him or even holding him or even knowing where he was and telling herself that it no longer mattered. There were times when she wanted to turn back the clock, to make it not happen.
There was nothing left between them except bitter regret and frozen love, and whatever he felt for her was not enough to make him desire her presence. But even after so many months, some nights she still woke up and lay sleeples for hours, not angry but infinetly sad, remembering that for a very long time they had been happy together - Genuinely Happy.
I knew, and so did she, that it was time to put it behind her, time to get on with life. In many ways she had succeded in overcoming the initial outrage and bitterness she had felt over what she still considered to be his betrayal. Apropos to the fact that she was not "always" right in the relationship, talking to her, I came to understand that when grief is not shared, blame is passed around like a hot potato instead, thrust from one to other eventually sticking to the hands of the one least able to throw it away.
Why is it that she, who usually is so absolutely in charge of her actions and emotions, gets hit like this every so often?
The combination of two sleepless nights and the continuing acute worry had left her physically and emotionally spent. She was going through the aftermath of a broken relationship. A story she tried not to let herself think of anymore. The memory of it all was still so painful. She hadn't seen him months now; months without seeing him, touching him or even holding him or even knowing where he was and telling herself that it no longer mattered. There were times when she wanted to turn back the clock, to make it not happen.
There was nothing left between them except bitter regret and frozen love, and whatever he felt for her was not enough to make him desire her presence. But even after so many months, some nights she still woke up and lay sleeples for hours, not angry but infinetly sad, remembering that for a very long time they had been happy together - Genuinely Happy.
I knew, and so did she, that it was time to put it behind her, time to get on with life. In many ways she had succeded in overcoming the initial outrage and bitterness she had felt over what she still considered to be his betrayal. Apropos to the fact that she was not "always" right in the relationship, talking to her, I came to understand that when grief is not shared, blame is passed around like a hot potato instead, thrust from one to other eventually sticking to the hands of the one least able to throw it away.
Why is it that she, who usually is so absolutely in charge of her actions and emotions, gets hit like this every so often?
It's not the time to have an anxiety attack. Tell your frnd that it's the time to act, and come out of it with the least emotional wear and tear.
ReplyDelete-Vijay.
There are lots of people in the world who have gone through this and have also learnt to cope with it. You fall in love and fall out of it, but life goes on.
ReplyDelete-Richa.
Does it make sense to spend unnecessarily on tissues for a person who has left her high and dry? The relationship is over, the message is loud and clear - he is out of the relationship. Tell your frnd to come out of it as well.
ReplyDeleteDivya.